eating ice cream while watching the biggest loser

i kind of feel like a jerk.

i downloaded a season of the biggest loser at random (it’s the tenth, i think) because apparently i can’t get enough of jillian michaels making me feel fat.

so, uh

i just took a picture of my legs (shut up) and oh my god, THERE’S A DIFFERENCE! this is so encouraging. i might be able to wear shorts someday.

seriously?

i’m looking at weight loss before and afters again (still?) and someone captioned theirs with:

“This is thanks to going 70-80% raw and eliminating all gluten/wheat, rice, grains, dairy and artificial sugars from my diet for the past 5 years and just now for the past 26 days being 100% raw vegan.”

good for her and all, she looks great and clearly has tons of willpower, but i’d rather be fat for the rest of my life. no joke.

i’ve spent hours looking at weight loss before and after tumblrs tonight

god, i can’t wait to not hate my body.

30 day shred: level one, day two

don’t worry, i’m not going to do this every day.

anyway, i really, really didn’t want to do it today. i didn’t get nearly enough sleep and despite the fact that i woke up feeling okay, my arms and legs got more and more sore as the day wore on. what’s up with that?

i did it though, and i feel like i got through it better today. probably because i knew what to expect. also, i switched to 3lb weights for a few moves. 5lbs was a little too much yesterday. i have the upper body strength of a toddler.

tomorrow is monday which means back to the gym. i’m trying to decide if i want to do 30ds on my gym days. 1hr at the gym (cardio & strength training) + 25mins intense circuit training = overkill?

i think if i reach my “goal weight” i’m going to chop off my hair.

i’ve been growing it out for so long but i don’t really know why any more. it’s ALWAYS pulled back because long hair is annoying.